This is officially going to make for the bitchiest blog post I've ever written, but a girl gotta vent somewhere sometimes. And I believe there are some folk around here who'll understand my anguish. Ahead lies a lot of bitter fangirl tears, incoherent weeping and some SPOILERS FOR MASS EFFECT 2. Nothing too severe or actually plot-related, but I don't want to ruin it for anyone so go away if you want to avoid meta game info as much as possible. Thanks. <3



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Now, let me get to the bawling and crying. So here's where the ridiculous part comes - I really do feel a teeny bit miserable over this. And feeling miserable over something like this makes me feel stupid and more miserable. I blame Dragon Age for making it alright to feel strongly over VGs.

SHORT VERSION:
I'm Bitchy De La Majorly over the fact that you can't have your ME1 love interest in your party in ME2. This, I believe, will lead to a situation where the romance might just as well not continue at all, it'll be so irrelevant anyway. I feel cheated on and seriously disappointed. All along I thought that ME1 romances continuing properly in ME2 would be too good to be true.

LONG VERSION:
So, I read some ME2 spoilers over at the ME LJ comm [link] and had my fears of romance continuity confirmed. So, we were promised that the romances would continue and apparently they're holding on to that, but the said aspect that has ALWAYS been The Thing for me in BW's games is going to be in the background - apparently especially if you want to hold on to your love interest from ME1.

Now, before some a$$tard rushes in to suggest I play dating games or Sims instead of scifi adventures, I will clarify that romance is not enough by itself, but it is DEFINITELY the thing to get me emotionally involved, which is what I've come to expect from a worthwhile gaming experience. I don't get a rush out of killing stuff without a clear purpose and I don't give a f**k about improvements made on this and that shiny equipment or inventory system. I shoot things, they die, and that's how much I'm interested in the 'gameplay' aspect of games. I want to live the story and I want to be attached to the things my character is supposed to do.

This is why BW games are superior to anything out there. If I wanted adrenaline I could just buy... friggin Modern Warfare 2. But as it is, I don't give a rat's ass.

Now, however, I'm dreading ME2 with a viciousness only possible to a rabid fangirl. I'm supposed to carry on as a character I established in ME1 and the said Shepard sure as heck is head over heels for a certain prone-to-migraines-biotic-hunk, who used to be my definite no:1 pixelated sweetheart before Alistair from Dragon Age jumped on board (thank goodness for Alistair or I'd be attempting to slit my wrists with frozen spoons right about now ) to share the spot.

So, now I know the said p-t-m-b-h won't be accompanying my Shepard in ME2 and I am, as it is, feeling eager amount of Mighty Bitchy and miserable over it. Because I like to think of myself as too mature to bitch this personal disappointment - that has nothing to do with anything distantly rational - in some forum (gawd know BW forums are full of crap already), I'm venting here at my personal space. That said...

I want my Kaidan! I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT!

Now, I know that the theme of ME2 is suicide mission, and I definitely see my Shepard trying to shake her old friends and especially loved ones out of the crew to protect their safety, but I have my doubts over this. There IS a chance the game pulls this off in a manner that will result in a lot of juicy fanfic and art and loffly angst. I also like to believe that if anyone can pull it off, it's the writers at BW. Still, right now fear clouds any hope. I just fear it's gonna be my Shepard going like "So yay Kaidan we were inconveniently in love back on some mission to save the galaxy and now Imma gonna go ahead and finish the job, brb darling." You know, the weight of things not sinking properly. Also, I have VERY hard time seeing Kaidan agreeing to this. He just always was to me the silent guardian type. Oh man do I love Kaidan or what.

So, there are going to be new romances I hear. Sure, all dandy and fine. There is no way I can see my ME1 Shep jumping ships to someone else's arms just like that. I might have to make a new Shep for ME2 cause for all I know this Jacob guy will be nice enough but COME ON, throwing another biotic at me and saying he's romanceable too? MY HEART WEEPS.

I really hope I'm angsting over nothing and BioWare makes it all work and I can continue worshipping everything they do. And I know I know, he who worries beforehand ends up worrying twice or how the heck ever the saying goes, but come on. We're talking about Shep/Kaidan, THIS IS SERIOUS. My heart can't take toying with such things! Ever!

Any thoughts, anyone?

PS. I better run back to King Alistair's arms. And lick some lampposts, that ought to make me feel better.

To put this shortly, I miss the times when KFM chatroom used to buzzle with life. Now I don't know where to go to talk to you guys anymore, apart from here in dA and maybe BioWare Social, but I haven't found most of you there yet.

So I created an IRC chatroom #fangirls on a FreeNode server, and yes, men are welcome as well. ;D I wanted something that wasn't related to a specific game or such, because by now we all know that that factor changes. So, if you're into fangirling, BioWare games, art, fiction... Welcome!

I don't know, I just wanted a place where we could all occasionally talk apart from dA comments that aren't exactly real time. I really hope to see all of you there!

And if you don't take the hint, people, I'll start pestering you personally. >_>

SIMPLE INSTRUCTIONS - The fastest and easiest way is to simply use a webchat like this [link] - Just type in your nickname of choice, put #fangirls in the channels field and click connect. You'll be with us in no time! <3

So, after all this waiting, I FINALLY get to drawing. Oh and I draw and draw, and even though the outcome is silly, I'm loving it and feeling really excited about sharing it with you guys - and what does my scanner do?

"OH, I'm such a handful device, you can print, scan and copy with me, isn't it nice? Flowers and fairies and rainbows! OH, but for the sake of logic win, you can't use me to scan a picture if you're out of black ink. Ta daa!"

I want someone dead. >_>


Oh, and by the way, the pic I was going to scan?

Has Kaidan from Mass Effect, Sky from Jade Empire, Alistair from Dragon Age, Carth from KotOR and Anomen from Baldur's Gate. Commence hatemailing to Canon!

I just returned from a looong business trip (both working and trying to study full time, can't recommend to anyone) with a swine flu. Which, believe it or not, is amazing despite the fact that I don't feel so very good. However, now I have time to just... sit and do all the fun things I never seem to have time for. Such as mingle online.

And such as play Dragon Age! <3 Which I just finished for the first time like 15 minutes ago. Any of you, my dear biowarians, into DA yet? Because I sure am. <3

That said, if anyone finds awesome DA fanart/fics I'd be more than willing to take a look, because I know by now that the empty feeling and shaking hands are going to get to me eventually - most you probably know how it is after you finish a game you've been playing for days without a stop. "What else is there in my life, what did I do with my time prior to [insert game title here]?"

We all know what a silly little fangirl I have inside of me, so let me just finish off by saying... Oh Alistaaaaiiiir! <3

Hey there folks,

In case some of you were wondering where I went AGAIN I just wanted to let you know we've moved to a lovely new house last weekend and we're getting our internet service sometime next week. Moving and renovating the said house has taken all my free time for the past month, so that's what keeping new arts from being uploaded. Hopefully everyhting will be back to normal next week.

Cheers, A